Friday, September 16, 2011

Trying to Love the Imperfections in Life...

Lately life has been crazy.  My hubby has been working a lot of hours, my blessing of a mom {who I couldn't live without} was out of town, some creepo has called me twice now and things are just chaotic.  I feel like I'm trying to juggle 100 things and only keeping like 1 thing up in the air.  I'm dropping balls everywhere, people!  In my efforts to {KEEP IT REAL}, here's how our life has been lately...

Five on my latest Imperfections...
{Things you Probably Won't See on Most Everyone Else's Blogs}

1. I have only cooked a real dinner twice in the past two weeks.  {Hot Dogs, Bologna sandwiches and Frozen Chicken Nuggets don't count as real dinner!}

2. My shower hasn't been cleaned in oh, a month or so.

3. I made Layne a BEAUTIFUL Alice In Wonderland dress for Halloween and our upcoming Disney Trip...only to find out that she couldn't get it on over her head.  {Out comes the seam ripper to add buttons.}

4. I haven't shaved in 3 days and my toe nails are in desperate need of polish.

5. My kids have overwhelmed me to the point of tears on more than one occasion lately.  I feel totally inadequate as a mom.  Thank God for sleeping kids because, oooh, when I see my babies sleeping, the world is all okay again.

I'm doubting myself.  I can't do it all.  And I hate that!  I want to be able to do everything perfectly, but that's just not reality.

I would love another baby in the near future, but after feeling like I'm on the edge of losing it {my mind, that is}, I'm second guessing myself.  Maybe I won't be able to handle another one.  Maybe this is God's way of telling me to be happy with what I have. Or maybe his way of telling me, hey, if you are ready for chaos, go for it.

On the way into work this morning, I heard this Mandisa song, Stronger.  And the lyrics were perfect. Just what I needed to hear.  God has a reason and a plan for everything.  This chaos is part of His plan to grow me as a Momma and Wife.  He's trying to teach me patience and kindness, even in the chaos.

Hey, heard you were up all night
Thinking about how your world ain't right
And you wonder if things will ever get better
And you're asking why is it always raining on you
When all you want is just a little good news
Instead of standing there stuck out in the weather

Oh, don't hang your head
It's gonna end
God's right there
Even if it's hard to see Him
I promise you that He still cares

When the waves are taking you under
Hold on just a little bit longer
He knows that this is gonna make you stronger, stronger
The pain ain't gonna last forever
And things can only get better
Believe me
This is gonna make you stronger
Gonna make you stronger, stronger, stronger
Believe me, this is gonna make you ...


Stronger
 

7 comments:

  1. Thanks for sharing your "real life". I wondered how these "perfect" Mommas with many small children "seemed" to have it all together! I felt like something was wrong with me for awhile, because I don't; and I only have one, and he's a teenager!

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  2. It is good to know that all mother's are not perfect. I know by far that my children would vote for me not being perfect! But at least at the end of the day, I know that I have done my best and that they still love me.

    Thanks for sharing the Mandisa song. I love her music and I had not heard this one.

    Hang in there, life is a bowl full of cherries!

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  3. I really needed to read this post tonight, you are not alone my friend!
    Huggs, Nancy

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  4. you shave your legs? he,he,he JK;)

    Mandisa says it on point. I like her messages!

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  5. Life kinda stinks sometimes, doesn't it? Makes you wanna throw in the towel and run off to some remote island in the Caribbean, doesn't it? :o) But it gets better. Love the song lyrics you put on here!

    I saw your post above this one, too. I hope ya'll have tons of fun at Disney!!

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  6. thank you for sharing.

    I really like the song.

    Alma

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  7. Sarah, thank you for sharing your struggles. Your post was exactly what I needed to read today, a true answer to prayer. As a result of reading this post, I shared similar feelings on my blog as well (http://www.JennJillDesigns.com). Thank you for reminding me that we don't have to be perfect.

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